(an expansion on my poem on homepage)
When I first thought about this question, many things came to my mind. I summed it up to the main terms of relaxation ,meditation, amusement, inspiration, communication, therapy, documentation and education.
However, why I write is not so simply defined by these mere words alone. It’s too deep to be defined. It can only be explained and shown through the power of my words. Alot of why I write has to do about me: hearing me, listening to me, understanding me and feeling me. Me,Me,Me,Me.
During my times of despair and loneliness, I feel like just sitting down and thinking. Most times it’s during a walk in nature with a small bag of food, my phone turned off, my keys, my purse and my favorite journal and pen. I sit down on a bench and reach for my journal adorned with the motivational quote:
DREAM If you can dream it, you can ACHIEVE it
and a sparkly blue pen. As I start to write, I feel my innermost parts breaking down to the smallest particles that exist within me. I begin searching deep inside perhaps for that God particle to understand everything even though I may never know. I write to find the answers to answer the questions that come to me both in private and public. As I search for those answers, my thoughts, beliefs and feelings arise. Sometimes I feel motivated by my own words as they appear on the page of my journal.
I sit and ponder
What does my spirit want to tell me?
What does God have to share with me?
I write when I can’t understand life, people and love. When my heart is full of sorrow or happiness, I need my heart to be able to cry out because of joy or sadness. My heart and soul needs to be heard. It’s a rare friend that exists who will want to hear my heart and soul 24/7.
In day to day existence, people rarely stop to actually listen to themselves not just the voice in their head. They hardly stop to sit down and feel. every. single. thing. that. makes. us. humans. I guess we now think that we are superhuman- inevitable. We can hide behind our masks of social media and be consumed by the television and internet for the rest of our lives.
I write to hear and connect with my soul and give my soul a voice. I write to actually be me and feel me. Writing allows me to record my progress in my life journey.
This is why I write:
To grow- personally (spirit, body and mind wiser)
To Create- a living record and explore new realities, dreams and fantasies
To Capture- my epiphanies
And that my friend is the power of the pen.